Monday, February 23, 2009

Choices

Sometimes there are things in life that you do not want to do but you have to. Today was one of those days. Sometimes making that decision can be one of the toughest things you have to do. However, in the end it will serve you well. Sometimes you have to make those decisions when you least except them. Sometimes you have to make those decisions knowing it will hurt someone. Sometimes you have to make those decisions that no one else is willing to do. That is part of the mystery of life. Through all of this, I know that God still reigns. No matter how hard things get, I know that God will never let me go. He knows exactly how I feel and He knows exactly what I need. The hardest part is often stepping out in faith and following the right path. Sometimes God will want us to give up things, other times He'll lead us to do things we don't think we want to do. Count on this, though His will is a lot better for us than our own.

Your word is a lamp to my feet And a light to my path” (Psalms 119:105)

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Minneapolis Here I Come...

It is official! I am coming to Minneapolis for Spring Break=) I am so excited! Spring Break starts next week Thursday. I will be going to Kansas City to meet Keegan and also meet hi family for the very first time. I am very excited but nervous all at once. His nephew is turning one that weekend, so there will be a party where I will be meeting everyone! We will then leave Sunday night and I will be in Minneapolis until the following Sunday. I want to see you all! So let me know when you are free. I have not been to Minneapolis since August so I am excited to finally make a trip and see all of my favorite people. It will be soo nice to spend some with my best friends and with my man, Keegan=)

This week has been very stressful. I have two midterms tomorrow and a project due. Today I also had to do a presentation in a Marketing class at a local high school. The presentation was on Ethics. We developed a jeopardy game to incorporate ethics. Then I went to a job career expo. It was a fun filled day. I am ready for this week to be over and for next Thursday to get here.

I have been very emotional this week as a lot has been going on in my life personally and with my family. I know that God is in control no matter what. I have been praying specifically for something in particular for two years, and I am still waiting. It is hard to wait, but God knows best. I just want to encourage you all to hold on and trust in Him. I know that there are times when I need encouragement, so I just want to send that to you all. I am constantly praying for all of my friends, that God will intervene in your life. I love how God gave us special people in our lives to go through life together. What a mighty God we serve!!!

Monday, February 16, 2009

Opportunities

A lot has happened this past week. It was a busy week with school in general. I spent every spare second doing homework, working on projects, exercising, working, and going to church. Work has been challenging as we are adapting to a new system. I went into work on Wednesday and the lady I work with said that the boss wanted to see me, but I was not in trouble. They offered me a position. It would be a huge responsibility and very challenging. I am not sure if I want to remain in Springfield for the summer, so I am praying about it and weighting my options. It was a good feeling though to have an offer. Some relief=)

So I called Keegan on Thursday and all day every time I would talk to him, he always had to go and he would never tell me what he was doing. I immediately knew he was doing something for Valentine's Day and that he was not going to tell me. Well, later that night after he got off of work he told me I would be expecting a package by 10:30 in the morning and I need to be sure to get it. I got the package but I was not allowed to open it until Valentines Day. Well, with my curiosity and anxiousness I could not wait. So I planned to open it at midnight and I made it known. At midnight we both got on the phone and he opened his card and I opened my box. Let's just say I am the luckiest girl ever! I open the box to find red roses sprinkled inside with red and heart paper decorated soo cute=) On the top was sitting a white rose, which he also got me last year, a tradition now I guess. I absolutely love Dove dark smooth chocolate so he got me a bar of that and a chocolate dove rose. Another tradition, third year in a row, is a heart shaped box filled with Reeses. Keegan and I have this thing where when he sings me a song it always is, "You Are My Sunshine." He was in Target getting my chocolate and he heard that song playing. He thought to himself, "I have to find where that is. I do not care how ugly or cute it is, I have to get it for Christa." So, he finds a Valentine's snow globe. When you wind it up at the bottom and it plays that song. It was soooo cute. Finally, there was a DVD. Keegan was on the webcam and we watched it together. It was sooo AMAZING! It started with a short slideshow of some of Keegan's favorite pictures of us. Keegan made a DVD of seven of 'our spots' that are special in our relationship. He took a video camera and went to each place recording it and him saying some very special things. Keegan made heart shaped stickers with a KC on them, symbolizing us. At every spot he placed a sticker marking our spot. It was sooo cute! I am sooo impressed and I would of never of guessed this in my entire life! Some of you may know and some may not, but Keegan and I had broken up for a little while as things got hard being apart. Well, Keegan and I were not 'official' again even though we basically were. He wanted to wait until we were in person again to ask me out, but he could not wait. It was soo precious, the same exact spot where he asked me out 11 months ago, March 14th 2008, he asked me out again. He had that same white rose in his hand that I now have on my desk, and asked me to officially be his girlfriend again! He got me...I cried. It was sooo special to me. He even overnighted this package to me, so I could have it on Valentine's Day. I am sooo blessed to be in a relationship with Keegan. I love him=)

Well on Valentine's Day I baby sat for a 11 month old girl. She is soo adorable and the family is a great family. They go to the same church as me. They are new to the whole church thing though. I am hoping that God uses me to witness to them and that I can be a testimoney to them. Before I left their house, we started talking a little bit about God and China, where I used to live. I am wanting to be a witness of my faith at all times. I have been seeking God to place opportunities in my way and I am excited to see how God is going to use me.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Trusting God

This week has been a hard week for me personally. I am really missing all of my great friends back in Minneapolis. Weekends are especially hard for me because I feel so lonely. I know many of you might be thinking how stupid this sounds, but I feel as if I am alone a lot here and I do not like it. I just miss the way life used to be in Minneapolis and I find myself asking if I made the right move by coming to Springfield. I correct myself often and remind myself that God directed me here and He has my best interest in mind. Graduation is less than 3 months away and I am looking forward to that.

I have been away from Keegan for almost 8 months and I am so ready to be with him. It has been so hard being away from him. I have learned to appreciate all of the little things in him. Our relationship has went through things, but in the end we are closer because of it. Hopefully for Spring Break (less than 3 weeks away) I will be going up to Minneapolis to see him and my friends.

One thing that God is teaching me here is being content with the circumstances in which I live. I am learning that when I feel alone it is okay. I am learning that when I do not understand, God does. I am learning that things always do not go according to the way I want them, and that is okay. Through all of this my trust level with God has been taken to a new 'level.' However, God always finds ways to remind me that He loves me and cares for me. Coming to Evangel has been a challenge but a good one. I am coming out a better person. Being around Ben and Shawna has been such a blessing. Also, I am receiving a great education down here. I am still blessed and I cannot complain, but rather count my blessings. All in all, God remains faithful. I coming up to a new chapter in my life and I am excited to see where God brings me. Who would of thought I would of tranfered my senior year in college? Never in a thousand years, so who knows what's next on God's agenda. All I know is that I am okay with whatever!

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Life Groups

Tonight we started up our Life Group for the 2009 year! I am sooo excited. I am a leader in Senior High at an amazing church called James River. It is a church of 10,00 and the Youth Group is the largest in the A/G I believe. We are number one in Speed the Light this year. God is using Real Life to help raise over 1 million dollars this year for Speed the Light. Scotty Gibbons, our Youth Pastor, even wrote a book about how Real Life raised over 90,000 in just 11 weeks. God is doing some awesome things. The students are so passionate there and real. They have a yearning for God that is so deep. The youth group is really big about 800 students but it doesn't seem that big. They do a really good job with getting to know students on a personal level. So my Life Group is called Antidote. Tonight we had around 14 people. I am very excited to see what God is going to do in our group this year. These kids are going through so much that it breaks my heart. I have such a heart for each and every one and its only the first night. We just had a game and food night tonight.

Last night at Real Life David Grant spoke. Every time I hear that man tears come to my eyes. He is the most incredible man of God I have ever met in my entire life! His testimony is so powerful. He spoke about this little three year old whose mother died from being HIV positive. Her mom was sold when she was twelve into the sex trade in India. This little girl has HIV positive also, but God miraculously healed her from everything! She is now a beautiful healthy young girl. With God all things are possible. The next time I go on a missions trip will be to Bombay, India.

I am so excited for what God has in store for me in the near future. I want to be involved in youth ministry upon graduation and will be for the rest of my life. Keegan has so many awesome opportunities out there. God is going to use him in a mighty way. I am excited to see what God is going to do in the next 3 months. It is soo exciting just sit back and watch God move. We serve an amazing God! I am ready to be used by God and serve Him in ministry for the rest of my life.